I should have known three days ago when it began. It wasn’t like all my other normal paranoid feelings.
No. I knew this time it was different.
Such an annoying but blissful feeling to have.
But I hadn’t been in this much pain in a long while. I yearned for pain pills. Pain pills I’d learn to hate so long ago.
And yet, a Walgreen’s run had to be made. To quell both the physical and emotional pain.
This was a first in almost three years. Not because it may not have happened before…but because I actually noticed this time.
The question now lies: what is my heart’s true desire?
Relief or grief? Both?
I’ll have to decide eventually.